the phenomenon of pregnant introspection

Ask me and I’ll say my hormones are just fine thankyouverymuch! But ask hubby, and you might get another answer. One day late last week I confessed to him while we were snuggling on our bed one day after work:

“I feel lonely.”

“Sweeetie! We’ve been together nonstop all week!”

It’s true, but I have still felt more lonely than normal, and undoubtedly more introspective. Something hormonal or mental in me is most definitely shifting. I asked one of my good (and very pregnant) friends if she also experienced this phenomenon, and I was (just a little) surprised to see that she had.

She told me that for her that feeling of introspection started similarly early on and has continued throughout pregnancy. She and I both agreed that while the first trimester fatigue may have played for her and is playing for me a large part in this feeling that we are not really connecting with others like we normally do, we both feel a definite introversion taking place. Early in her pregnancy, she found herself relaxing quietly on the couch while her family played games. I find myself slipping to the opposite end of our sofa with a book or a list of baby names. Hubby and I still talk a lot, and I am usually blabbing about something or another, but even when I am talking I feel mentally farther away than normal.

Like my friend and also hubby said, completely separately, tonight — she and I are probably feeling this way because we are focusing so much on the miracle that is occurring inside us, and no one can really understand precisely what we are feeling except for us. I guess that’s why I am also focusing so much now on keeping the lines of communication and love open with my hubby — I don’t want him to feel out and I want us to both be able to share how we feel and what we need from each other throughout this entire process.

Has anyone else experienced this phenomenon pregnant introspection?

Advertisements

2 thoughts on “the phenomenon of pregnant introspection

  1. It’s funny, I’m feeling way more clingy than usual. A couple of times, I’ve phoned my husband just to hear the sound of his voice — even though I’m going to see him in a couple of hours.

  2. Oh, definitely…I can’t wait for my husband to get home, throw myself at him, exchange lots of kisses…then shove him away until nightfall, because it is so stinking hot here and I simply cannot cool off!!! But, yes, I want to spend lots of time with him. Fortunately he is pleased by this, lol.

    Congratulations, btw!

Leave a Reply

Fill in your details below or click an icon to log in:

WordPress.com Logo

You are commenting using your WordPress.com account. Log Out /  Change )

Google+ photo

You are commenting using your Google+ account. Log Out /  Change )

Twitter picture

You are commenting using your Twitter account. Log Out /  Change )

Facebook photo

You are commenting using your Facebook account. Log Out /  Change )

w

Connecting to %s